Dermatophagia (sufferers can be called wolf-biters) is a form of obsessive-compulsive disorder wherein a sufferer compulsively bites their own skin. Sufferers typically bite the skin around the nails, leading to bleeding and discoloration over time.
I’ve been biting/eating my fingertips for a long time; maybe since around early teen years. Maybe longer. I’ll be twenty in a month. I never knew why I felt compelled to do such a gross and disfiguring thing, but the quick development of new skin and callouses due to my guitar playing probably didn’t help; it’s kinda like adding fuel to a fire. It seems to me that I have an increased compulsion to do it the past couple of years. Maybe it’s all the stress, subconsciously ballsing everything up. Life has sure become increasingly stressful. Here are a couple of photos of my increasingly-hideous fingers.
I’m going to wear bandaids on all my fingers at work today, or something. I really have no idea how to stop this terrible thing, but I’d like to. Every time I feel skin that is not smooth, I’m compelled to remove it, either by pulling or by biting. It’s really gotta stop. Goddammit, I just did it again, ffffuuu. WELL. From now on, I will try to cover my fingertips at all times to prevent this terrible thing. I’ll let ya know how that goes.
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